it's about..*sigh*

I've told myself,
no ones ever believe what u had try to explain to 'em nor they wanted to,
so i just let it,ppl say let the time decide it..but for me i will not let the time decide it, i will let the time "MEND" it..because ppl will not ever believe even u try harder to convince them no matter how innocent or how bad u r..

Once the truth is finally comes out, the ppl used to keep silence.WHY??N WHY??? because they know their mistakes, their judgement are totally wrong..they used to judge the cover first before they know deeply about the content.. use ur brain for those ppl..the brain is a worth gift from the Al-Mighty, dont ya'll realize it or ya'll nver do..hurmm..dont use ur brain to create a non-benefit thingy n story for ur own sake because sooner or later the story that u has created will "eat" u back slowly n slowly.

do u envy wit me gal?
oh,glad i have ppl who r envy wit me..but which part do u?study?business?? or wateva lol...
here, i want to clarify..no matter what have u done, u just hv to remember there are THE ONE who r watching US.so be nice to urself n pple, lve urself first and dun be a big liar cuz a liar never wins nor they wont quit!

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"Matter Of Factly"..

Today I felt like ma world rolling upside down..everything happened as I don't wish for.All the burden are on me, am the brother, am the sister, am the daughter, am the student and it's make me sick sometimes cuz I can't stand anymore, I felt am too weak at this moment. I dunno what to do, what should or suppose to do cuz I can't think wisely rite now. My instinct said that my life will be end soon...ermmmmmmm...JUST IGNORE IT!!It just to make me confused of myself.The pain was more than I could endure.
Matter of factly, behind my happy life there are a lot of pretty damn things that I wish could be resolve soon.
I just lost my appetite,hmmm..well,it's gud for me actually cuz at least I could reduce my weight.Doesn't have a mood to do my research..owh noo..I just hate this part!!I cant concentrate on my work...I have to go back this Friday, hope the matter will settled down peacefully.Yet, I can't concentrate on my study.Actually,I've been in front of my laptop at 4p.m but nothings I've done.That's why I just blogging..feeling better rite now..hahahha..what a stupid of me!!Nothing will be easy in ur life if u think it's not...

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FaciNg OneSelF

Has anyone said to you, "You need to look at yourself?" While this comment may be off-putting or considered rude, it has value. It is of value in that when one can see oneself from the eyes of others, only then is one able to truly see oneself in full dimension.

Sigmund Freud, 1856-1939, Austrian psychiatrist, founder of psychoanalysis identified twelve behavior habits which he posited created varying degrees of emotional distress and dysfunction. One of these twelve coping habits is projecting onto others that which one does not want to know about oneself. In order for anyone to recognize this coping habit, one has to look at oneself-thus the comment is a gift. Albeit at the moment it might be considered a rude or condescending comment.

Self-important feelings might prompt you to be disrespectful or arrogant. Disrespect or arrogance is a mask for underlying feelings of self-doubt. Unfortunately, this behavior drives others away and thus you feel even less sure of yourself-an ironic cycle. When someone says, "You need to look at yourself," you have been given a gift. This gift can only be given by someone who truly knows you and cares about you. Because if the person did not know you or care about you they would simply go away, leaving you wondering why, thus, leaving you feeling less sure of yourself.

When you see the traits you dislike in yourself in others and adopt an attitude of haughtiness you are avoiding facing yourself and you will end up feeling even more uncertain. Facing your shortcomings boldly can give you the opportunity to regain your self-confidence and help you work through your issues and to cleanse the lens of your spirit. When you look at your self-doubt you will discover that you are better able to relate to yourself and others.

Consider taking all feedback as a gift-albeit might come from an unlikely source. Others are merely mirrors for you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

Instead of using your energy to defend yourself, you can use your energy to face the comment and discover your insecurities or areas that need improvement. When you look at yourself you will feel better about yourself, heal old issues and let go of the need to project your feelings onto others.

Looking at your feelings in a constructive way helps you to avoid projecting your feelings onto others. Discovering the root cause of your need to cope by projecting is important. You are the only one you are fooling by masking your true feelings by projecting onto others. You will enhance your relationships by looking at yourself and improving on those issues that are hindering you from being yourself and allowing who you truly are to come through.

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aLoNe In tHe daRk....

Have you sensed you are alone with your feelings, and that seemingly no one can understand how you feel? This is one of life's greatest paradoxes that you are the only one who feels as you do. Your feelings might compel you to want to run away from it all. These seemingly alien feelings are buried treasure full of opportunity and inspiration if you are willing to look, listen and trust that what is buried is what you need to look at in order to know yourself better and to become more of who you truly are.

These feelings come to the surface in several forms; strange or surreal images, snippets of information, recurring dreams and feelings that perk to the conscious mind seemingly without rhyme or reason. Whatever form they come in, and no matter how uncomfortable they are, these messengers bring the information you need in order to become more whole in who, you truly are.

When you have depleted your energy by pushing your feelings down, or have exhausted your creative ideas looking for ways to run away from it, a good first step is to write what you think you are avoiding. This exercise will assist you in bringing the issue to the surface or a symbol of something else. Expressing yourself fully on paper is a safe way to begin exploring the shadowy edges of your unconscious mind.

The dispassionate intellectual side of your brain can give you the distance you need to read what you have written, thus, you can feel less afraid of it. It helps if you remember that no matter how dark or negative your thoughts or feelings are, these thoughts and feelings are shared by all humanity.

You are not alone in the dark

All the gurus and teachers you admire went through their own unprocessed emotional terrain in order to come out the other side wiser and more whole. You had the strength and courage to come this far and to open the treasure chest of what you are avoiding, therefore, you can access the same strength and courage to discover the source of your negative thoughts and painful feelings.

Within the parts of yourself that you do not want to look at, there are emotions that need to be felt and processed. Unfelt and unprocessed emotions are stuck energy, and when you leave emotions unprocessed, you deprive yourself access to the full spectrum of who you truly are. Once you have discovered the source of your negative or painful feelings, you can summon your strength and courage to then process it, on your own or with guidance from a practitioner schooled in emotional and spiritual healing. It is through this work that the buried treasure of energy and inspiration will pour forth from your heart, giving you the courage to look at all the parts of yourself with compassion and love.

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